Just another day..

**Old post** realized I had drafted this post and never published. I am slightly better spirits but am going to go ahead and publics...**


Literally sitting in my toilet closet in tears.

I don't want to use the "D" word. As much as it runs in my family, many times I feel like it isn't real and it's all in my head. 

The past few months I've watched every one around me change. My friends, my husband, my kids, work.  So many changes, so many people moving on and doing better..and I'm stuck. I can't keep up. I feel like it's sink or swim and I'm drowning.  

I hate this feeling. I can't get out of my own head.